Yay!
Talking about ‘yay’ my mum called me this morning at work to ask me how to spell ‘yay’ then hung up on me almost immediately once I told her. LOL.
Anyway, my conclusion is I suck at saving. Just got paid and I have already spent $100.00 and I will be spending a bit more tonight.. LOL. Oh well. I am still young.
Okay, I was going to write more but got something urgent to do for work now so.. I will ‘tumblr’ you all later?
I was quite moody yesterday. Never felt that pessimistic in anything for such a long time.. so its nice that today my spirits are up and high, as always:p haha. *sends happy vibes to all*I feel like things are slowly falling into place and I am happy with how things are heading. There are of course a lot more other things that I would like but now, now, we can’t all be greedy!
So its only now two more days until Bryan is here. I am looking forward to spending the long weekend with him. I am still not nervous which I thought the week of his arrival I would be haha. So its nice to feel ‘casual’ about it, but I am sure as I am heading to the airport on the train that my nerves will rise a bit.. but I know it will all be fine:).
Looking forward to having drinks with a few friends and him that night too, its been a whole (well will be on Friday) two weeks since I have gone out! haha.
I have gotten these three ugly dry spots. They are red and circular and gross lol. Two on my right hand (one more obvious than the other) and one on my left arm.. oh wait that one is barley obvious now!
Anyway this little update is seemingly turning into a big update so ill stop… NAOOOO
Peace out mother fuckers (LOL totally stole that from “Rocci Berrini or what ever his name is)
Ash
*insert a ton of rants and raves here*
Have you ever noticed when you have a new found source of happiness that some of your friends try to quash that joy for you? It may be subtle but I have noticed it.
I don’t understand it?
*insert some more ranting and raving*
The end.
Ash
I got my hair done yesterday. Funny thing is I am trying to match my natural colour, which means go a bit lighter, but every time I come out my hair always seems a bit darker.. although I am definitely getting closer to the right tones now, I just need to go a shade lighter I think and then I will be there. I am even contemplating maybe if the regrowth is not that obvious to let my regrowth take its course haha but I get bored so easily with my hair that I am sure I will be dying it a different colour again sooner or later.
Annette and I yesterday went and visited our friend Jessica. I had not seen her for probably a month and a half but it came as quite a shock she has lost a substantial amount of weight and she really now does look sick, it was a bit uncomfortable talking to her where she claims she eats a lot of food and is a pig and then later telling us she lives off coke zero and lollies. Well duh, both those items have very little calories at all.. this can’t be good for her at all. When Annette asked her how she lost her weight she uncomfortably said “oh you know, having a BF now and lots of sex it really does make you lose weight” before that she tried to claim it was from work but then admitted she got fired haha. So it couldn’t be that then the ‘sex with the bf’ thing came in.
Makeup = age? I am beginning to get sick of people saying I look younger then 20. The only conclusion I can make of this is the fact I wear no make up and constantly have a ‘fresh face’ one girl who is 20/21 yesterday told me she always thought I was 15. I looked at her, then myself and thought; 1. I act my age more than she does. 2. My body is more womanly then hers. 3. My voice is not pip squeaked and more older sounding then hers.. but the only difference was she had a ton of make up on. Ding ding ding we got a winner? haha. I was showing a work colleague photos from my friends Rebecca’s 21st where Kelly claimed Bec looked like she was in her late 20s/early 30s, of course Bec had a lot of make up on. On other occasions where I have been at the gym with Bec and she was sporting the ‘fresh face’ look as well people assumed she was only 16. Anyway this is just my frustration haha.. I don’t know where I am heading with this.
I think this is enough pointless rambling for today! Until later, see you all!
Ash
Haha. I keep having realistic dreams that are boring and like my everyday life.. the only difference in these dreams is the fact I confront the people I currently am having issues with or people I wish things were different with. I have not had these dreams for a while but I have had them before. I know my mum is the same because she tells me she has dreams STILL to this day where she yells and screams and gives crap to my father. I guess we are both the same in that regard.. both a bit of a push over? hmm, well not really a push over per say but I know for me I don’t like to confront my friends. In my view its not my place to do so and its there life.
So the past few nights I have had dreams about a friend whom I feel we are drifting out of a good friendship again. I use to speak to her daily but now its not even weekly or fortnightly more like once a month. I feel fine about it but the fact I am dreaming about it proves it is on my subconscious. I realise I am a bitter person and I have made a few small attempts at it but in the end I am not making myself unavailable, I am quite readily available for her to talk to if need be… Oh well, such is life. I told her in my dream I was upset and hurt by this and we fixed it.. but stubborn me will not do this in person as I find its not my responsibility too.. the dream was so real I really thought I did haha. When I woke up this was the only thing that stood out in my memory but I do know that I dreamt a lot of other realistic/real feeling things.
Anyway this post is really about me rambling. Other then that life is great as always :) Quite happy and I can say the past few years I was never this happy. It is good to rid the people you don’t need in your life!
Ash
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Sydney was definitely sunburnt this morning. I woke up this morning to a surreal orange glow through my window at first I thought it was just a strong sunrise but once I looked outside it was far from this. I can definitely say it was an eerie sight to see. I am glad this happened today and not the 2nd of October. Flights have been postponed for now. My bosses wife and step daughter were meant to go to America this morning I am not sure what is happening with that but I definitely don’t see them flying out this morning.
Anyway, here are some photos from this morning 
Although it has lost the sunburnt look now and just looks dirty I hope it passes soon!
Ash
